I haf been feelin very unwell lately.. I dunno y.. Realli feelin very weak all over.. Juz wonderin wad has happen 2 me..
Anyway, sch was e same.. Except tt I became more bz.. Bz as e days goes by.. Events.. Meetings.. Etc.. I feel stress.. I feel tired.. *Yesh.. I noe every1 is e same.. I m not alone..* But I realli feel lyk collapsin soon.. My bod is turnin my life upside down..
I tried hard 2 fufil my duties as an Events Director.. Chiong alot.. Not coz I gung ho.. But I juz dun wan 2 fail any1 or my duties.. It wasnt an ez task 2 b an Events Director.. Thou we work as a team, but dere would b tyms when we work alone.. Tml fund raisin bazaar.. Manpower activated is more than norm duties.. Not double, not triple but many many more tyms.. An estimated of 50? Yap.. I swear I tried my best 2 suit every1.. Ppl tt u peeps cannot work wit, I nvr put.. Duties tt u guys dislikes, I try 2 change.. But hurtin me most, is tt some1 actualli dun understands how my work is lyk n badmouth me on blog.. I was furious.. I was upset.. Esp e nick e person used.. It wasnt my intention 2 cancel anythin.. It wasnt my will 2 do anythin.. Neither it was me who abused my authority 2 allow my friend 2 do e duty..
I realli hope 2 explain all tis.. But any1 willin 2 b my listenin ear? Any1?
I dislike e feelin I m in right now.. I dislike e fact tt my health is not on a bright side.. I dislike e fact tt no1 appreciates all tt I haf done.. I neglected e special some1 in my life even.. *Yesh.. My dear dear..* I could haf send her hm everyday.. Away frm meetings n stuffs.. Away frm e eyes of every1.. But but..
Sometyms I feel guilty towards her.. She was ever understandin towards my duties.. Nvr @ once complain abt my bz schedule.. Nvr @ once quarrellin wit me over meagre things, addin on 2 my pressurize work.. Coz of my strict discipline @ hm, I sometyms even had 2 fail her coz I would b unable 2 leave hm.. A failure bf I m but she still loves me so much..
Sorrie 4 postin such a =( post.. As much as I hope 2 =) but I cant.. I juz hope tt tml's bazaar runs smoothly.. Runs well.. I noe hiccups r bound 2 happen.. But but.. Plz plz.. Dun make me cry.. I m not as strong k? Actualli, when I read e blog, I wanted 2 cry.. But I chance upon it in hub.. So I controlled.. N juz laugh it off by badmouthin her back.. Deep down in my heart, I noe a knife has juz stabbed thru..
TML WILL B A BETTER DAY??